Just English

I don't feel like writing this in Spanish. I want to write and speak in English right now. I'm depressed, a little. I have good times but there seems to be a negative sort of thing overshadowing stuff. I dunno exactly what happened, but I snapped last weekend. I just wanted a cigarette and to hit someone. This whole week I've had too many thoughts at night. I've also taken things more personal. Part of it is about a girl, of course. What I want and what I can have right now are two different things. I'm not scared of a relationship...but I must do what is best for the other 100 people that I am somewhat responsible for. Life with girls is much easier in the States. I don't have as many things and factors to deal with. Blah. I punched the back part of a weight lifting machine until it broke off...that helped me let out some steam. I'm looking forward to crawling out of my funk.